I have to tell you about my milk.
I was so sad yesterday because we haven't had milk for a few days. We had just come home from Kenny's doc appointment in Seattle and I was proud of myself for saving just enough gas for the trip. Anyways we came home and it was 5 o'clock before I even thought about what to make for dinner.
We were blessed by some friends who gave us a bunch of ground beef the day before but I forgot to pull it out of the freezer. So, I think in exhaustion, I finally sat down in my chair and started to cry. I asked God why He had allowed us to be so weak. How long will we be in this situation and why can't I provide for my children the milk that they need. I was so sad and so tired.
Five minutes later my neighbor comes to my door and hands me a gallon of milk. He said don't worry about paying him back. Then another five minutes go by and Naomi (who is my children's adopted grandmother) comes back from taking my oldest son school clothes shopping (another blessing) and hands me two more gallons of milk. I still don't know why God has allowed this trial into our lives and I still don't know how long it will last, but I do know that God is providing for our every need. It is so hard to be so weak but God is faithful and He will help us get through this, even when I get so upset and question Him. He still loves us even when we have a hard time trusting Him.
We were blessed by some friends who gave us a bunch of ground beef the day before but I forgot to pull it out of the freezer. So, I think in exhaustion, I finally sat down in my chair and started to cry. I asked God why He had allowed us to be so weak. How long will we be in this situation and why can't I provide for my children the milk that they need. I was so sad and so tired.
Five minutes later my neighbor comes to my door and hands me a gallon of milk. He said don't worry about paying him back. Then another five minutes go by and Naomi (who is my children's adopted grandmother) comes back from taking my oldest son school clothes shopping (another blessing) and hands me two more gallons of milk. I still don't know why God has allowed this trial into our lives and I still don't know how long it will last, but I do know that God is providing for our every need. It is so hard to be so weak but God is faithful and He will help us get through this, even when I get so upset and question Him. He still loves us even when we have a hard time trusting Him.
I just wanted to share that with you because I am so humbled and touched by yours and others generosity to us. It has been the hardest thing for me to be the recipient of so much because I said in my heart I would never be in need because I would always be able to take care of myself (issues from my past). I don't even have the words to describe my gratitude to everyone, I wonder if anyone really understands how much they have blessed my family. Well only God knows.
One more thing... I love you and I will pray for you with all my heart! God bless you all.
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